Irene is happy to be back home in
Chicago. She is not actually from Chicago, but near enough that she has always
considered it home. After seven years of traveling, a respite with family and
friends is desperately needed. Familiar surroundings and well-loved voices ease
the soul in a way that nothing else can. She hops up the steps of her parents
suburban home, nothing distinguishes it from the neighbor’s house except the
family that lives there.
Entering without ringing the
doorbell or knocking, she strides across the threshold, "Hi mom, I'm
home."
Her mother arches her back so her
head pocks out of the kitchen down the hall, "Oh, hello dear, I'll be
right over, just let me put this down."
Depositing her things on the door
mat, Irene moves through the house, nothing has changed much, the pictures on
the walls and table depict her and her brothers as successful adults who ware
fancy clothing happily rather than rambunctious children forced into fancy
clothing unwillingly, but otherwise things are very much as they were. The walls
are still white, the floors still wood parquet, the stairs still have the
strange electric blue carpet running upstairs that matches nothing else in the
rest of the house. Her father still stares down the television in the living
room, waving distractedly at her over his shoulder.
Her mother comes bustling out of the
kitchen, she may have gained a little weight, but otherwise she is unchanged
too. From her nineteen eighties hair style to her nineteen eighties make up,
right down to her recycled rubber shoes, mother looks just like mother.
"Oh Rennie, it's so good to see
you," Irene's mom extends her arms in an anticipatory hug as she waddles
down the hall, knocking a decorative end table with her hip and a family
picture with her hand. She pauses just long enough to fuss at the picture before
Irene swoops down to hug her mother. Half a head taller than her mother and a
third as heavy, Irene smells the all natural mint and rosemary shampoo her
mother switched to two years ago to help with her dandruff, and the pungent
smell forces tears to her eyes.
"Hey, mom, so great to see you.
Is Dad watching the Bears game?" Irene flips her palm back towards the
living room from whence a loud, NO, erupts at that very moment with a
corresponding crash of a chair hastily exited, making the question somewhat
mote.
Her mom roles her eyes in response,
"Why don't you come into the kitchen with me? Diner won't be ready for
another half hour I'm afraid and then I won't be able to peel your father off
his backside for another hour after that, but we can have some girl time in the
meanwhile."
"Sure mom, I'd like that,"
Irene smiles at her mother, but a small sense of dread blossoms in the pit of
her stomach, she had been hoping to avoid any girl time conversations with her
mom.
Following her mother into the kitchen,
Irene observed that while the entry was trapped in the illusion of homely,
reserve, and timelessness, this room aspired to different goals. Everything was
different here, the appliances had all been swapped out for gleaming, high-end,
new, stainless steal boxes with little touch screens that Irene suspected her
mother still did not know how to use properly.
"This new oven was supposed to
be fabulous," Irene's mom pouts as she peaks through a useless window that
lets you check if your cake has risen yet every fifteen seconds,
"Everything should cook evenly, but I just can't get things to cook
properly at all in it. Everything takes an hour longer than it should, I have
just had to adjust all my recipes, but I really should just chuck the thing out
and get the old one back."
Irene knows her mother's comments,
however casual sounding, are always calculated. This one is meant to imply
several things: first, any imperfection in the cooking is not due to a lack of
her mother's skill, but inherent issues with these new fangled things; second,
it draws attention to the fact that the kitchen is full of such, expensive, new
fangled things; third, the implication of wealth that Irene's father brings
home enough bacon to the family that they could just scrape the results of a
hugely expensive kitchen renovation at her mother's whim; and fourth, that
Irene's mother is such a dedicated and resourceful woman that she will just
power through and make due.
Rather than tread into any of these
subplots to her mother's rant, Irene sticks with the safest option flattery,
"I'm sure it will be great mom. What are you making, I always miss your
cooking when I'm away."
"Oh you," Irene's mother
waves a towel dismissively at her, "I'm making corned beef and cabbage,
because I know how much you like it."
"Wow, thanks mom. So how have
things been with you?" Irene felt herself flailing already, trying to
delay the inevitable turn the conversation would take.
"Same as always, same as
always," she twitters as she bustles over to the kitchen counter, Irene
has taken a seat at one of the stoles used for the breakfast knock, and her
mother grabs a second stole and flips it around the counter to sit across from
her daughter.
"Is there anything in
particular you want to do while I'm around? I'll be busy a lot with work, but
I'm sure I can get some time off." Irene notices no change in her mother's
exterior, but feels her mentally coiling like a cat, ready to pounce.
"Having you around for dinner a
few nights a week will be just wonderful. Maybe we can have lunch in the city
some time too, where are you working?"
"South Shore Hospital."
Irene waits for her mother's reaction to that.
"Where is that? I don't think
I've heard of it." Her mother’s eyes dart back and forth and suspicion
slaps across her face.
"80th Street, off of Yates.
It's close to the Skyway and Rainbow Beach." Irene suppressed a smile, she
could have driven a Mac Truck through her mother's dangling mouth.
"Why on Earth did they give you
a job down there?! What's your employers phone number, I'll give him all call
right now and ask for you to be switched. You can't possibly work down there
and live! Where did you say you got an apartment?" Her mother's agitation
amuses Irene and she hopes she can keep it off her face.
"I'll live in Calumet Heights,
mom, and the hospital is near there too. It'll be fine, it's actually a pretty
good hospital." Relatively speaking, Irene adds in her head. In her years
with ITG, Irene had held positions in significantly less desirable
neighborhoods, although she rarely told her mother as much. For Irene, being a
temporary nurse and paranormal investigator had ended up being just as, if not
more dangerous on the nursing side as the paranormal side. Very few of her
assignments had even led to the detection of paranormal energies, and a
personal inclination towards self-sacrifice and a true desire to help the less
fortunate had resulted in her relatively high number of jobs in
underprivileged, understaffed, urban and rural areas.
"Humph," her mother
flusters, "You're definition of 'fine' seems a bit off to me. But it could
be worse I suppose. Still you can't expect me to go down their, you'll just
have to come up here for dinner every week. You could live here couldn't
you?" Irene's mother prattles on. South Shore hospital and the Calumet
Heights neighbor hood both have the uneasy distinction of being a fairly safe,
well off area, completely surrounded by the worst of Chicago's South Side.
"No, I'd have to commute through
downtown everyday, and I'm not up for doing that for three months straight,
especially in winter. I found a pretty good place too, another nurse at South
Shore owns a two bedroom condo and I'm going to sublet the second bedroom from
her." This is one of the better temporary living arrangements Irene has
managed to secure and she was proud of it.
Her mother humphs and snorts again
compulsively shuffling over to the oven to gaze through the door at the roast
that had not changed. "Next weekend you'll have to come up here on
Saturday for sure. I've already asked the Hamil family over for dinner."
"Hamil?" Irene cut across
her mother's speech, the name sounds familiar, but she cannot place a face to
it.
"Yes, Joseph and Olivia, and
their son, Eric, I can't believe you don't remember him, he graduated high
school the same year as you." Irene suppresses a groan at this statement
and knew herself to be strolling right into her mother's trap. She did remember
Eric Hamil, not that they had any classes together after freshman year, he was
the sort of guy who had skated by with B's, good looks and a good sense of
humor; however, by now Irene had enough life experience to know that good looks
and a good sense of humor ultimately got you farther than good grades.
"I might remember him. Don't try and set us up though,
he wasn't my type in high school and I doubt he's changed much somehow."
Irene attempts to cool the approaching storm from her mother.
For her part, her mother acts
indignant, "Set you up! Now Irene, you know I would never dream of such a
thing, but really would he be such a bad choice? People do change in ten years
and after all you're almost thirty can you really expect to be choosy with men
at this stage in your life?"
Irene sighs as her complete
impotence in avoiding this conversation dawns on her, "I still have plenty
of time mom, I don't need to be married, I'm perfectly happy with my life right
now."
"Oh sure, you're happy with it.
But wouldn't you be happier if you were married and settled down. Here in
Chicago would be ideal I'm sure, and Michael's oldest is nearly ten now you
wouldn't want to deprive him of cousins his own age, don't you remember how
much fun you had with your cousins." Irene's mother presses on.
"They do have cousins their own
age already, or did you forget about all our in-laws?" The only reason Irene
could forgive her brother for having kids so young was his wife's bevy of
family more than compensated for her mother's argument.
"That's not the same
Rennie." Irene silently disagrees with her mother on that point, cousins
are cousins after all, "I still think you ought to give Eric Hamil another
chance, he's done quite well for himself, managed to expand his father's
business."
Irene has no idea what the Hamil
family business is, but mentioning Eric Hamil so close to children has brought
up another association for her, "Doesn't he already have a kid? I thought
his girlfriend in high school was pregnant."
Her mother stiffens ever so
slightly, "As a matter of fact she was, and they were married, but I'm
sure you'd make a great step mother as well as mother."
Raising her eyebrows is the only
response Irene can muster to this comment. Of course it should not surprise her
that her mother believes she can only capture a man with a history already,
after all her mother considered her an old maid at twenty-five, and Irene
herself perceives nothing wrong with blended families, but a year ago her
mother would not have suggested it and it reeks of a strange kind of
desperation.
"Why so eager to see me married
off mom?" She inquires a new degree of suspicion arising within her.
"I've always wanted you to be
happily married sweety," her mother simpers before turning away from the
conversation, "Oh look, the corned beef is done!" she declares at the
oven.
Irene is handed the impression that
the conversation is over as her mother flounces about the kitchen preparing
dinner. The silence stretches, but not uncomfortably, whatever words may pass
between them, the silence between Irene and her mother has never been awkward.
After a few minutes of preparing food, Irene's father is drawn into the room by
the tempting smells.
"Hi, Rennie, the Bears
lost." Her father shakes his head as a way of greeting looking mortified
at his feet.
"Sorry about that dad. How's
everything else?" Irene laughs inside, but quickly stifles the merriment.
Her father's irrational emotional attachment to sports vaguely amuses her, but
laughing at her father's rare moments of sorrow pains her too.
"Alright. You know, the
hospital is doing fine, I'm retired from surgery now, I don't know if your
mother told you." he sighs only a little at this declaration, although
Irene knows it hurt him immensely to be pushed out of surgery by younger
fresher men with younger fresher hands and eyes, "It's mostly
administrative work now, which is boring and stressful, but it pays better and
beggars can't be choosers I suppose."
Irene cannot imagine her father ever
being a beggar, unless her mother bankrupted them with lavish spending,
something she had always been threatening to do with her over the top
renovations and other purchases. "Well you can retire anytime you want to
now. It's not like you have to help pay for us anymore, if you don't like the
job quite."
"I could never do that. What
would I do with my time?" Her father protests raising his hands before his
face as if to ward off the idea. Irene's mother drops a plate of food in front
of her father and he scoops it up before sliding to the refrigerator and
procuring a beer.
"You'll be around next weekend
won't you, Rennie? We can talk about you're new job then." He shoots over
his shoulder as he shuffles out of the room. For as long as Irene can remember
her father has eaten his meals in his office so as not to be disturbed, as long
as Irene can remember her father has done everything at home in his office so
as not to be disturbed, even sleep for the most part. After her eldest brother
moved out he gave up the farce entirely and had a door put through from his
office to the recently vacated adjoining bedroom, creating an office suite for
himself inside the house were nobody else dared to enter uninvited. Not that it
mattered much to Irene, her father had always been an aloof ideal, something to
aspire to and some one who's wrath was to be avoided, but he was not her
friend, her mentor, or even really her parent. He was the surgeon that just
happened to live her house.
Irene's mother places a plate of
food delicately in front of her and takes a second for herself, it's just the
two of them so they eat at the counter like old times. Just like old times,
Irene's mother returns to the bone she wants to pick, although the conversation
is exasperating to Irene, she knows deep down it is her mother's way of showing
how much she cares. Her mother is happy with the route she chose in life and
just wants her daughter to have the same amount of happiness, without
understanding that Irene might find happiness in different places.
"What about some of the men
you've worked with then? I remember you mentioning one a lot, MJ right?"
"No, not him." Irene does
not want to expand on that one, but feels a tiny shudder escape her.
Immediately, a wave of guilt hits her at her reaction. MJ might have been a
great guy once and he did serve their country after all, but she is not
interested in a project for a husband and MJ's mind is to fractured to pretend
he would be anything else.
"Okay, okay, but wasn't there
another young man you talked about at work, about a year ago?"
Irene possessed no idea to whom her
mother was referring and sensed she was just fishing for information,
"I'll look for someone well I'm here, how about that? Maybe I'll meet
someone at work." The admission rips from her and she is unsure if she
means it or not, but nothing else will pacify her mother.
Her mother beams back, "Of
course you will Rennie." There is an unspoken implication that the
conversation is over and the both turn back to their meals.
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